Jus a li'l while back...

Wasn’t it just a little while back that we were kids, running around the table, chasing each other? Playing, teasing, squabbling without a care in the world. Never paying much attention to anything around us, we were always so immersed in our own play.

It’s like I blinked and everything is different now. The table has changed, the cupboards have changed and so have the walls. But most of all you have changed. You are now a Grown-up! Somehow that is the hardest thing for me to come to terms with.

You are no longer that cute little kid who painted my childhood with such fun splashes of colour. You are now this boy trying to find a footing in the adult world.

You are now this person I call friend. Someone who advices me, criticizes my mistakes and even someone I can have life-talks with!

When?? When did all this happen? What happened to that cute little boy who was always so curious about things, but too shy to ask? That person who blindly believed that he had a smaller appetite when I told him so, just cuz I wanted the bigger share of the cake? Who got frustrated when I teased him? Where did he go?

I always wish time would freeze and we remain what we are now. But not so with you. With you, I wish time would go back to when we were little kids, and we could still run around the table chasing each other…

I wonder...

I wonder if there will be someone who would pull at our pony tails and give a cheeky grin when we are vexed with him...

Someone who would act in weird ways, just so we can say, “ Ugach PS maru nakos..”

I wonder if I’ll meet again, someone so brainy, that she is in one of the top universities, and yet can be a child who says “ Aye aaj mala jasta tras dyaycha nahi kay...”

Someone who’s love and fascination for the frogs, lizards, snakes is indirectly proportional to our affinity towards them...

I wonder if I can find someone who manages to get stuck under a bench, providing an endless series of laughter, even years after the incident...

Someone who is brave enough to be a sailor, and yet so shy and reserved in is bearing...

Someone who can find a mathematical base to everything in life… and who would prove it to you!

I wonder if there will be someone, who though from the outside may seem changed, is still the same sweet, innocent girl that you have always known...

Someone who would definitely qualify as the master chef to us, simply for all the yummy cakes she makes...

I wonder how anyone can look so beautiful and yet be so innocently unaware of it...

Someone who has the most beautiful voice that binds us together in its melody...

I wonder if anyone can fill the place of someone who defines the term “best friends” to you, even years after you became friends...

I wonder if I'll meet again such wonderful people, who are quite unparalleled in the place that they hold in my life and heart.. they are not just my friends, they are a link, to my past and memories so beautiful that can’t be put into words...

I wonder how anyone can be two times lucky and meet another bunch of equally crazy and eccentric people who help me shape the person I am today...

I wonder if I’ll meet someone who always has his camera with him to capture the memories of moments spent together...

Someone who is always royally late, and we still wait around for him...

I wonder if I will find again someone who walks with a funny swagger and who denies it when we walk like him too...

Someone who cracks the sickest jokes, but we still laugh on them anyway...

Someone to whom life a challenge meant to be enjoyed and how everything should include Mazze...

I wonder if I can ever find words fit enough to tell them how much they mean to me… If I may take the privilege of quoting lines from a song called ‘Thank you’ by Sarah Connor...

“ I want to thank you for all that you are..
Thank you for being in my life when it’s dark..
Thank you for bringing me joy each day
I love you more than any words can say…”

Assemblage of some Random Thoughts...

This being my very first tryst with the world of blogging, I am not really sure what I want to get out there. I feel like a small child now standing at the entrance of a new and exciting world that would provide me with endless possibilities to think, feel, create, challenge and rediscover myself, which of course at that age I didn’t realize I was doing! It is like finally allowing that part of me that I always harboured, to breathe. It’s like accepting the presence of someone you know you’ve always loved but always trying to pretend it didn’t matter.

I really do feel like I’ve been left loose at a candy store and I am unable to decide which candy to give my attention to first!!

My thoughts maybe very random and haphazardly put, but I’ve decided to let it remain the way it is, without refining it ; because refining it would only make it shiny, glossy and entirely unreal like most things we see these days. And I honestly hate the superficial armour people seem to hide behind. I mean, if you can’t be what you really are, what is the point of being at all? How many times are you going to change yourself just because Someone else does not appreciate you. That, is one of the reasons why I like writing, it lets you be who you are. There is no one you have to please, no one to explain anything to. It is just a free expression of your thoughts.

Sometimes when I write, it surprises even me to read what I’ve been thinking. An unrestrained flow of thoughts is one of the most beautiful things that I’ve experienced. I find I discover a new aspect of mine every time I write a piece, whatever the underlying idea maybe.

And that is probably why I find it apt to head my first blog as “Rediscovering Myself”. Like Albert Einstein has said, “You can go through life as if nothing is a miracle; or you can go through life as though everything is….”

Me? I’m just going through life looking for miracles!!